03.08.2024

I sit here in the rocking chair with you asleep on my chest, your arms to either side of your head. You are sleeping so soundly. Which is rare for you today because althought you are beyond tired, you refuse to sleep anywhere but on top of me or in my arms. And any change to that, you wake up and cry.

I tried to put you in your outfit of the day and take pictures like i usually do, but you started screaming at the top of your lungs the second I put you down. I tried the “cry-it-out” method to see if you could self-sooth, but you didn’t settle one bit. And it hurts my heart too bad to hear you cry…

And so I sit here for over an hour now with you asleep on my chest. With my stomach constantly rumbling because I haven’t eaten anything all day and it’s already 3pm… but I sit here with you sound asleep on my chest because it’s the only place you’ll sleep and you need your sleep to grow.

But Oh how I wish you’d stop growing (in the best way). Well maybe not stop growing, but for time to slow down. I almost burst into tears putting you into your outfit today as it’s a “newborn” outfit that is looking very fitted on you rather than the looser fit I’m used to seeing on you. I am so grateful for your growth proving just how healthy you are and how I’m providing enough nutrition to you to allow you to grow, but man it’s a bummer feeling to look into your closet full of clothes and begin to realize we may not make it through all your newborn outfits before you grow out of them. You’ve been so tiny, so I thought I had plenty of time with one outfit a day, but you’ve been growing so fast! Im going to have to start with 2 outfits a day!!! 😭😭😭

But boy are we blessed to have such a problem…

I have to remember that in these times of sadness of how quickly the time is passing by. That I am absolutely blessed to have this problem of being sad of you growing up. Because I have a beautiful baby that is HEALTHY and HERE! We are blessed to have such a beautiful nursery to take pictures in! And so blessed to have an abundance of clothes options to wear! We are beyond blessed to have the “struggles” we have.